The clouds look luminous

August 22, 2013

            I am out of sorts with myself.  I was unable to slow my mind last night causing rest to be a distant dream (no pun intended).  The fun is just starting to begin.  I am out of Pepcid for two days now, which means I am waiting to look down and see an inferno.  The heartburn is so bad I might spontaneously combust at any point.

            Two days left on my blood pressure medications.  I know from experience that my blood pressure is a high achiever always moving higher and higher up.  Some of the worst headaches I have ever had.  It makes it hard to think.

            When my thyroid medications wear off I will be bloated, achy, moody, and very hard to live with.  Like I said, the fun is just getting started.  I don’t think The Goat Man has any clue what is coming. (Well, until he reads this post.)

            The Goat Man is running dangerously low on cigarettes.  Hold on to your seats folks because the two grumpiest, most ornery, and stubborn homeless people are about to face life without meds and cigarettes.  Please bow your head and pray for my strength.

            Like every day we are at McDonald’s trying to secure employment and cope with the doom ahead of us.  Several recruiters want to send The Goat Man to school.  Do you suppose they can teach that old dog new tricks?  He is set in his ways.  I think it would be good for his ADHD mind.  He is such a good guy.  I hope something pans out for him soon. 

            So far the day has been as gloomy as I feel.  The dark clouds have cloaked McDonalds like The Dome.  The sky opens and drops buckets just to remind me the few things I have with me are all exposed to the outdoors.

            There are a lot of exposed things these days.  I find myself wondering if a certain personality creates a homeless person or if homelessness creates a certain personality?  I feel like I do nothing but waste time, but I am always feeling rushed and behind.  Is this what insanity feels like?

            I move forward with my writing and my PhD.  They take all of my time and energy anymore.  It is hard to find the strength to do anything.  I now have my own site though. www.akwalraven.wix.com/writer

            I am just out of sorts today….